Relationships!!

Hi today I am writing this blog not to tell you guys something but to ask you some questions. Questions which are related to my life and may be in some ways related to some of your life too. I am a person who values a relationship a lot whether its with my parents or my friends or my brothers and sisiters. I believed that a relationship exists more due to the emotional bonding we have for each other but is it actually true? Does money, job and your status effect your relationship more than your feelings?

I was surprised when my elder cousin sister who is 1 year older to me but is younger in terms of studies as she is still in her final year said that now a days every relationship is based on money only. I was hurt when I heard my sister whom I really liked say that she ahd been having grudges against me. And for the reason that I was not able to give her anything during raksha-bandhan, that when I went to sims it was an achievement for me but I did not give her a party for that. She said that I was a miser and that I never wanted to spend a single penny on them. She said that everyone who is with me feels the same way. Is that true?? This is the question I have been asking myself.

When I was in school till the time I was able to treat my friends with pastries or patties everyone used to be friends with me. Were they friends because I used to spend money on them and here I used to think that they are my very good friends. At college I once said no to give a full contribution to a dinner where my room amte had called a lot of friends as I could not afford it is that the reason he did not speak to me afterwards.

Since the day I remember I have always tried to bring happiness on everyone’s face even at the cost of making a mockery out of me but I always failed to bring that happiness to my parents they used to be angry at me for sometimes they were ashamed at me for I was never good at studies but my sister was they used to say “ his son has topped in his class and what should I say that my son hass barely been able to pass”. Is it that my being an average student always let them down. I remember the only time when my family or my parents introduced me was when I into symbiosis for than they had something to say. Now when I want to complete my dream as a choreographer they say that it’s a waste of my life they want me to make a life in corporate field they call my interest a wastage of time and money.

My parents say that even your friends are going to leave you whom you are so proud of if you don’t do well in life. Are they?? I am confused at this because somehow I have a feeling that they are going away from me. When I was in college me and my friends used to chat at all time even at night than we parted it came to phone calls but at least they were everyday but now when I see it we don’t speak for weeks and sometimes for months. The same has happened with my closest friend once it was a time when she used to speak to me daily and I used to listen to her but now she doesn’t feel like telling me anything that she is going through. And now how helpless I am when I am not able to help them when they need me nor my friends nor my family.

Have they lost confidence on me?? Don’t they trust me anymore?? Is the thread that binds our relationship getting weaker day by day?? Is my sister true for calling me a selfless worthless git who cannot do anything for others . I don’t know what to do now I am confused and scared. Am I actually going to loose everything that I care for that I love the most!!

Smile!!!!!!!!!

I always ask my friends, my family to keep a smile on their face but some do get irritated sometimes but how do I make them know them that how a smile changes you and the environment around you. Some of my closest friends have a very beautiful smile and they don’t know but when they smile the world just becomes more beautiful may be after reading these lines they may understand.

Smile, it is the key that fits the lock of everybody's heart.
A smile happens in a flash, but its memory can last a lifetime
There are hundreds of languages in the world, but a smile speaks them all
Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy
A warm smile is the universal language of kindness
Smiling makes you feel better about yourself, even if you don't feel like it. And it always makes other people think better of you.
A smile is a light in the window of a face that signifies the heart is at home and waiting
Life is like a mirror, we get the best results when we smile at it
You are never fully dressed until you wear a smile
A smile is an inexpensive way to improve your looks
Beauty is power; a smile is its sword.
Keep smiling - it makes people wonder what you've been up to
Peace begins with a smile
Every tear has a smile behind it.
Keep a smile on your face and let your personality be your autograph
No matter how small, a SMILE on your face tells all
What sunshine is to flowers, smiles are to humanity
Smiles are unbreakable- -and mend broken hearts
Smiles are great investments: the more you collect, the better you feel
Be multilingual; smiles are the universal language
A laugh is a smile that bursts
A smile is just a frown upside-down
A smile is as nice to give, as it is to receive
Most smiles start with another smile...
Though Smile cannot erase our burden, but it sure does make us feel lighter...
So Just smile pleaseeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!

My First Bike!!!!!!

I was in 10^th when I had a dream of having a ride which is more than a cycle even if it is just a luna. My first ride was on my cousin’s sunny if you guys may remember it it was one of the cutest looking scooters of that time. I so wanted a scooty. So I asked my mom to buy something more than a cycle for it was now old and I had been riding it since last 9 years I wanted a change so on my birthday they gifted me another cycle a new one though. Although I was expecting a new luna or scooty but I still liked that cycle for it was damn classy with awesome looks and beautiful styling but it has been just 4 months when somebody stole it. Than I had to ride that old cycle again. After 12^th when I was going to college I asked my parents to buy me a bike but no they again gifted me with a cycle and I was still happy with it for it was a racing cycle this time “HAWK” if you remember the cycle. I got my uncle’s old scooter to ride in 2^nd year. I kept that scooter with me till my graduation but I never had an urge for a bike at that time. But I did love my mom’s scooter “The White Angel” as I used to call it.

I requested my dad to give me that scooter for my post graduation. I had that scooter with me for the whole of my MBA tenure. Sometimes I do used to feel a little down because in my college whoever possessed a vehicle it was a bike and I was the odd one out. But I still loved my scooter for it was the most beautiful in all the vehicles standing in the parking lot and its white color used to glitter even from long distance. Than I fell in love with the Pulsar 220 my second love after Karizma For it just took the senses out of me. One of the best bikes I have seen and ridden. It belonged to my best friend Atish. He used to give it to me sometimes to ride it. And damn man how it felt that you are sitting on a 220cc raw power engine with speed and pickup mind blowing. I had thought that if I will buy a bike it is going to be either this or if bajaj comes with a better version.

When I came home this year because of my job I needed a bike. I tried to convince my dad for the 220 but it was not working. He was totally against it because first it was not available in CSD and than it was too expensive too. I agreed to him because I knew the its cheaper version was going to take some time to come but than bajaj launched pulsar 180 the new styling with almost all the features of 220 except for the outer headlight looks but when I went to see it, man it felt quite amazing to see the changes made in that. I went for a test drive and there it was 0-70 in just 6.5 seconds although 220 does it in 6 seconds but this seemed to be fair deal I was ok with it and so was my dad for it came in his budget too and was available in CSD too. So there I got it the New Pulsar 180cc Black( color because I loved the color atu had). Now my long last dream of having a bike of my own has come true. Speed as far as itouched was 110 but it is said to touch 125. And cool styling with looks same as that of the 200 and handle and back seat support that of 220. I say it may not be a 220 but its still 80% 220. And I love it now. Now I am just waiting for one more thing and that is to make the girl of my dreams sit behind me it and we go on a drive. So it’s a girl hunt now!!!!!!!!!!!!